Who Do You Need Me To Be?

I continued to be amazed by how the Lord hears and answers our prayers! Today, at Church the talks were on charity, and the lesson in Relief Society was on a Psalm "Search Me O God, and Know my Heart!" The entire lesson just affirmed me, and strengthened me in the answers I received to my prayer of "Who am I Lord? Who do you need me to be?"

We sang a hymn at the conclusion of Relief Society that resonated with me! It delivered a message that I needed, I needed to hear because of my deep desire to help others, aid others, be there for others, try to do things for others if they cannot do them themselves.

Hymn # Know This, That Every Soul is Free

1. Know this, that ev’ry soul is free
To choose his life and what he’ll be;
For this eternal truth is giv’n:
That God will force no man to heav’n.

2. He’ll call, persuade, direct aright,
And bless with wisdom, love, and light,
In nameless ways be good and kind,
But never force the human mind.

As I listened to the lesson, I used my little notebook that I take notes at Church in to plan how to go about becoming who the Lord needs me to be! I  read the scripture: Moroni 7:44 - 48. I focused predominantly on verse 45, 46, 47, and part of 48. It reads:

45. And charity suffereth long, and is kind, and envieth not, and is not puffed up, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil, and rejoiceth not in inquity but rejoiceth in the truth, beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.

46. Wherefore, my beloved bretheren if ye have not charity, ye are nothing, for charity never faileth. . . .
47. But charity is the pure love of Christ, and it endureth forever and whoso is found possessedof it at the last day, it shall be well with him.

48. Werefore, my beloved bretheren, pray unto the Father with all the energy of heart, that ye may be filled wiht this love, which he hath bestowed upon all who are true followers of his Son, jesus Christ: . , ,

The Lord defines charity for us, He tells us what it is and tells us  without it we are nothing!  I know that at one point in my life the Lord was pleased with me for the charity I had developed. And my entire post mission life, I have had this aching desire to make sure I possessed it. With the decisions I have made, I have fallen back from who I want to be as a person. I still possess many of the wonderful qualities I had, but they are out of practice, and other need strengthening.

My plan is to take each part of the description of charity and focus on that specific aspect for one week. Each Sunday, I will post the attribute of charity I am working on, and at the end of the week, I will critique myself on how I am doing!

I desire to fulfill who the Lord needs me to be, because I know there is much I need to do in this little area of His vineyard.