Pantene Pro V auditions

I love this pic J and the sister missionaries auditioning to be the next pantene pro v hair girl LOL. Just look at that volume LOL.

Love it!

I just want to say, I am brilliant!! I seriously have to be the smartest person ever . . . add Danny as an author and I will never have to post again! He does all the work for me!! hee hee!! Thanks for all the little do dad updates!! I love you!

Dbacks Game

Enjoying the D-backs game with the family. It was a beautiful day and Bug and I had a home run ball land 15 ft in front of us but we couldn't get to it but it was really exciting to be that close to getting one. We will get it next time. I love doing things with my girls.

Gingerbread house making or facials?

Am I the luckiest guy or what? J is always trying to find new ways to give me the best skin possible by putting frosting, ketchup, and really anything she can find all over my face. She really cares alot about her man and my skin LOL.

Easter Bunny

We took bug to get pics with the Easter bunny. We have tons of fun at bass pro together. Its like a vacation for our family. She makes me so proud to see her so excited to be an avid outdoor hunting fishing girl. that's my little girl.

Here is J at the end of our hike at peralta trails we love hiking and being in nature. It was really nice to finish the hike with a beautiful sunset but in my opinion J makes the pic. Can't wait to take our little girls out on hikes and picnics and camping all the time.

Tummy Pictures

So, a few friends asked to see my tummy! LOL! Let's start at the begining. This is where my tummy strart out as . . . . oh, how i miss that size bum and thighs!!

Enjoying a night out with my love at the D-backs game. We had alot of fun and had great seats. Can't wait to take our girls and cheer on our team.

Visited Grandpa Williams and in doing so discovered that I have some competition. It was fun visiting with him and listening to him say how beautiful J is and that I better hold on to her, I would have to agree Grandpa.

We went and visited Grandma and Grandpa Palmer and it was a nice fun visit and J and I got to see my Grandparents banter a little back and forth and then Grandpa got in trouble and still after 60+ years of marriage he tried to put the moves on Grandma saying "But Baby," it is a pretty funny story. I can't wait to share 60 years with the love of my life and still call her baby.

You are the most beautiful angler I have ever seen. However in all my years of fishing I have never seen anyone have a fish get the better of them as much as this fish got you love. It really made for an entertaining fishing trip lol.

Expanding love along with happiness

Wow J never stops amazing me. You are very special love. I am constantly amazed at how well you handle yourself in every situation and in every senario. You are the most amazing Mother to Bug and the most amazing friend companion and love of my life to me. I am so grateful that you will be the Mother of our children. The world would be a much better place if all children had a Mom just like you love. I had the best easter that I can ever remember spending it with you and bug and the rest of the family playing games talking chatting bantering back and forth enjoying great food and fun games. I love how well you fit into my life and with my family. I am so grateful for the love and support and help you show and give to me on a daily basis life would be so much harder without you love that is for sure. I am grateful to be sharing with you this amazing blessing that is coming into our lives and sharing all the blessings that our daughter now and our daughter on the way brings to you and me daily. Thank you for being such an amazing and wonderful blessing to me and strength to me. I am glad you set up this blog and are keeping bugs going the way it is. I love that we will have something for our kids and family to go to on a regular basis and see the love that is shared in our home and in our family life together. You never sees to amaze me with your incredible forsight and attention to detail and the relentless sacrifice that you make everyday to make everyone around lives just a little bit better. You are the best shining example of putting others before you meeting their needs and doing service for them. I am so glad that you have this attribute and that you teach our children the importance of being this way and how blessed you can be for touching the lives of others like you do love. Thankyou fo much for your example. I love you very much and appreciate all that you are and that you do. I love you and thank you for loving me the way you do. With all my love Danny

Eggtastic!

Danny was ever busy taking pictures! I love that he does because so much is documented. When dying Easter eggs on Saturday, Kaiya and I concluded we needed to make one for the "summer package." So, we set about to make one . . . .here it is: This is the picture Danny's tries the hardest to get . . . rarely for the first shot will he ever get one of me smiling! Typically, he gets a shot like the one below . . . might be the most annoying thing about me . . . .

Belly shot with Kealani's egg.

Many have not seen Danny since I had my h.s./college years crush on him! LOL! Given he had a lot less facial hair, and fewer parts missing or being held together, he is still the same person. Over the year of my divorce, he was the single person (friend or family) who called constantly and consistently to check and see if I was in need of anything. He was there when I wanted to hurt someone, he was there when I needed to just cry, and he was always reminding me that while others may not see it . . . there is an amazing woman, mother, and friend within me.

Danny and I, on one of our many hikes.

So much of who I am has come back because of my best friend. He never treated me any different, and always treated me with adoration. After years of being told how not worth time or breathe, it was amazing to once again feel adored. In high school, after a date, he once looked at me and said, "J, you are special." I of course in my style had to make a joke out of it . . . . however ,in the year to come after and the years before this . . . there were days when I had been beaten down, and I could hear my friends voice saying "You are special" on that front porch so long ago.

I realize our situation isn't perfect, and I realize there are struggles. However, how can those who are suppose to love me the most, disown me, and consider me dead? How can they refuse to even consider the one person in my life who had been there and made me feel important and good, even in my most ugly moments. At times I think I am at peace because of the Savior for sure, and I think also I have this person telling me, I am still good even though I messed up, and it is backed up by his wonderful family.

Everytime there is an issue arise, he rises to the occasion and fixes what needs to be addressed. There is always progress, how do you walk away when there is constant progress? How do you ever walk away from someone who makes you feel like you are worth anything and everything? How?

Easter Fun

This year, we got to go to Danny's sister house and do family activities with them. It feels so wonderful, and such a blessing to have "in-law" family here. Let's just call them that because in truth, that is what they are, without there being an official paper, etc. It felt different I had never been around family of a boyfriend or anything like that before. Kaiya enjoyed it, and I loved it. It felt different but good. They are so warm and welcoming!

Summer Package

As she has come to be called . . . here are pictures of the "summer package." LOL! While the circumstances surrounding her arrival aren't exactly the most ideal, she is a blessing. I think how much more stressful it has been on me to prep for this one because while I have the best support in the world, that support doesn't get to live here 24/7. Which no matter how helpful, and how willing makes it quite difficult. Not to mention the emotional toll it takes on him to not be able to be here to lighten any load that maybe present at the time, or monitor my water intake, and more recently my food intake.

Steps Forward and Steps Back

When happiness expands, it doesn't always happen because there are steps forward being taken. Sometimes, in the process of life, one takes a few steps backwards, and is able to be given time to regroup, reevaluate, and more importantly adjust the direction they are headed in. Obviously, this past year was many of those things and more!

Among readjusting one's self to the steps and readjustments, one discovers those who truly love you, and who will stand by you even when your life doesn't fit their preceived "successful" or even "correct" course. While it hurts when some choose not to stand by you, you discover quickly that if you depend on the Savior, and truly care only where you stand with you, all things, even those you thought would be unbearable, become a moment of growth and even moment of feeling immense love. And soon, you discover how much you love all of those you have in your life, and you have no harsh feelings for how they respond to you, react, or treat you. Instead, you find all you want is for them to feel love, peace, and have their hurt, disappointment, and any other feeling healed!

The process of choices, and having those choices become things I have to stand up and face, that I cannot hide from, has been a process that has truly brought me peace, happiness, and a calm. But, have been an immense learning experience in how truly aware of us and our situation the Lord is, and how wonderful he can be in healing us, if we just allow Him too!

Expanding Happiness

I couldn't think of another name for this blog! I was going to call it something to do with two little girls, to girls with K names, discovering sisterhood, etc. However, truth is . . . I hope it won't be limited to just two girls who are sisters with names beginning with K. I almost called it finding happiness, but couldn't do that because I didn't want K1 to ever think I was unhappy with being her mom! I have found all my joys in the past 6 years almost in being her mom! I expect for her happiness and my happiness to only expand as time goes on. But, it isn't just because of K2 joining us that our happiness is expanding! It expanded because my best friend came back into my life. It expanded because I remembered how to feel, I relearned how to be me! And, we both quit living in instability.

We for sure do not have it all together. I am a work in progress, my life is a work in progress. However, my happiness is expanding! Who would have thought!!

So, I start a new chapter in life, in blogging. A chapter that includes so many people who were a part of my life, but not to the extend they are now. A new chapter that includes K2, and simply starting to post about her or the love and events that brought her to us on K1's blog seemed, well . . . just didn't fit! So, I expand my blogging . . . to fit with my EXPANDING HAPPINESS!!