When happiness expands, it doesn't always happen because there are steps forward being taken. Sometimes, in the process of life, one takes a few steps backwards, and is able to be given time to regroup, reevaluate, and more importantly adjust the direction they are headed in. Obviously, this past year was many of those things and more!
Among readjusting one's self to the steps and readjustments, one discovers those who truly love you, and who will stand by you even when your life doesn't fit their preceived "successful" or even "correct" course. While it hurts when some choose not to stand by you, you discover quickly that if you depend on the Savior, and truly care only where you stand with you, all things, even those you thought would be unbearable, become a moment of growth and even moment of feeling immense love. And soon, you discover how much you love all of those you have in your life, and you have no harsh feelings for how they respond to you, react, or treat you. Instead, you find all you want is for them to feel love, peace, and have their hurt, disappointment, and any other feeling healed!
The process of choices, and having those choices become things I have to stand up and face, that I cannot hide from, has been a process that has truly brought me peace, happiness, and a calm. But, have been an immense learning experience in how truly aware of us and our situation the Lord is, and how wonderful he can be in healing us, if we just allow Him too!
You are so awesome. Sounds like the healing is truly taking place. Keep me updated with your health. I'm making something for you sweet girl.
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