Friday, July 1, 2016

Best Day Ever

We met in July 2013. 
We became exclusive in December 2014. 
We decided to get married on May 6, 2016 just 4 weeks later. 
We had our announcements, rings, engagement pictures all done before we got engage on May 13, 2016. 
We tied the knot on June 9, 2016. 

It took a lot to get us here. It took struggling thru accepting that what I felt is God's plan may be His plan, but sometimes others free agency prevents His desired plan from happening. It took accepting what I'd hope for would not happen. It took being willing to be open to the idea that my ideal was not going to be and allow myself to allow someone else in my life. It took time, it took seeing time and time again that you never spoke hurtful words, you never walked away, and you were a constant.  We were not love at first sight. We are very much love by choice. It took me seeing and realizing that you were a constant and a consistent.  It took recognizing there was no drama, no ups and downs, no threats to leave, no hurtful words and initially it scared me because Id never seen love like this. I have only seen love of having to prove I was worth it, of walking on shells, waiting for the next shoe string to drop, and constantly on edge for the next time I was worthless, replaceable, and begging for another chance.  For the first time, as unnerving as it was at times, my relationship with you was peaceful, consistent, and constant. Slowly, I realized this is what others have and find joy and happiness in. The patience and lack of anger in words and actions shown toward me won me over. The care given to those most precious to me won me over. Our friendship became a beautiful base for our relationship. When uncertainty rocks me, you stand as a rock. We found love right where we were standing. We found love slowly as we gave friendship to the other. Thank you for loving me and walking slowly enough in this process to allow me to work thru all my fears and misconceptions. Thank you for loving me just as I am. Thank you for being my sunshine. 

As the words to our first dance say, 
"Well I've waited so long, so long, so long
For someone like you
And as this morning breaks through the window pane
It reveals the truth
Baby, you're my sunshine, first light
Find your way to places that only know lies
Failed tries and bruised skies
With hardly time to hold on or be strong, now I'm strong
'Cos like the dawn you push it all away." 

Thank you for pushing away the lies and failed tries. 

We planned our day on record time. It was perfect. It was exactly the perfect blend of the two of us. Now, onto getting our eternity.