Gizzy-isms

This sweet girl cracks me up!! The innocence a she has in her views of the world. 

A month ago, we went out to eat after Kaiya's Orchestra concert. A family of Hispanic decent came and was seated across from us. Kaelani turns and says, 

"Kaiya, you match them. Look you match. Kaiya, you speak Spanish you look like them." 

Poor Kaiya who has always been conscious of her skin tone turned red. She has yet to realize all her pale friends will be spending hours in thebsunnyo get her beautiful natural tan. 

This morning, as we got dressed to go to swim. Kaelani came to me and the following conversation ensued: 

K: Mom, why aren't we brown so we can speak Spnish?

M: Just because someone is brown doesn't mean they speak Spanish. 

K: when are we going to get brown? Am I turning brown? I have freckles. 

I can't help but giggle inside. Her sweet innocence coupled with her very observant perceptions. Love her and her sister. I'm thinking we may need to get one of her not brown Uncles or cousins to speak Spanish for her. That will blow her mind. 

Molly Pitcher Wax Museum 2016

Kaiya chose to do Molly Pitcher for her wax museum. She did everything on her own, save acquire a costume. I am so proud of the awesome job she did managing her time to research, write, memorize, and decorate for the museum.

Molly Pitcher Wax Museum 2016

Kaiya chose to do Molly Pitcher for her wax museum. She did everything on her own, save acquire a costume. I am so proud of the awesome job she did managing her time to research, write, memorize, and decorate for the museum. 

Kaiya Excels

Kaiya has been an awesome student! She excels at nearly everything she does. This year she received awards for: 

All Year Honor Roll

Outstanding Orchestra Student

Math Olympiad 

Scholastic Award

I think what makes me more proud is to watch the girls she chooses to spend time with be onstage too. It eases my mind to see her choosing good friends.

Mrs. McClure and Preschool

We went to deliver Mrs. McClure her teacher gift and apologize for being so disruptive during the program. We are so grateful to have found this sweet teacher. She has been there for mom and Giz on so many occasions. Especially as we went thru the screening process.  She has been the sweetest teacher, and has pushed a little by little to get Giz out of her shell - - regardless of how cute and smiley Giz is when avoiding answering a questions.  After three preschools, we are sure glad we found Mrs. McClure and got to spend 2 years with her.

I cannot believe Giz is a preschool graduate and entering Kindergarten next year.

Archery

It has been a few frustrating weeks at archery club.  Week after week Kaiya's draw length has been off. Week after week we have fixed it only to spend the next week fixing it again. Frustrating to see her frustrated after having such natural abilities displayed during lessons. Finally, we went this week and there were no draw length issues and she was consistently hitting the target again. 

Engaged!!!!

We got engage on Friday, May 13, 2016. It was amazing! Matt went to my dad with a prenup agreement on Friday morning. He invited my family to be part of the engagement. He asked the girls if he may have their permission to marry me. They of course said yes.  He asked me with a beautiful green diamond ring and a shotgun! It was perfect! I've never had a man get down on one knee with so much love and affection. He has tears in his eyes which touched my heart. 

I am so grateful for the man that he is and how he treats the girls and I. I've never had to prove I deserved him I my life. He has never spoken an unkind word or tried to force anything upon me. He is a man of God. I am grateful for his presence in our life the last 3 years. I'm so grateful we reconnected after 21 years. LoL!

Family

This is family. This is unconditional love. These member of this little family will never abandon each other. We may not look like other families, we may be a bit different. However, our love is just as strong. This family is a forever family. 

Sister Forever 

Family is forever

If he wanted to be with you, he would be with you!

If he wanted to be with you, he would be with you!!

There are a million possible scenarios here. It’s easier when he’s a jerk – selfish, only thinking of himself, using you to make someone else jealous, using you in general, treating you poorly, crushing you thoughtlessly, whatever. But it’s a lot harder when he’s a good guy, and you still have to let him go. When he tells you that you’re an incredible person, but he just doesn’t feel the same way that you do. Or when he really likes you, but doesn’t think you’re the one. Or when he just doesn’t feel as strongly as you do and he wants to be honest. Or when he can’t seem to make up his mind and feels confused, which he doesn’t yet realize just means that he’s afraid of hurting you, that feeling ‘confused’ just a softer way of eventually saying ‘no.’ If he wanted to be with you, he wouldn’t have had to make up his mind in the first place. It would just be an answer that he felt deeply in his gut.

But regardless, whether he’s a wonderful guy or a jerk or somewhere in between, this is about you, moving on. Because no matter what the situation was, no matter how well he treated you or how much fun you had together or how well you got along, he doesn’t want to be with you. And that’s the truth. And that’s going to be your life raft for the next several weeks or months, no matter how much you don’t want to grab onto it. It is what is going to eventually help you come to peace with the end of your relationship, or the fizzling out of your fling, or the ‘no more talking’ after you guys spent so much time ‘talking.’ It is the truth, and as ugly as it is, it will be the only thing that can help you move on:

If he wanted to be with you, he would be with you.

It’s easy to try to soften the blow. He needs time, or he just needs a little space, or he’s just afraid of commitment and I just need to reassure him, or he builds walls and it’s my job to kick through them.

But think about the way you feel about him. How easy and natural and obvious it feels. How you don’t even need to question whether or not you should be with him, because it just feels right in your veins. How, even if you were scared of committing to someone or getting hurt or opening yourself up, you were still willing to do it, because your heart had already made up your mind. You wanted to be with him, so you were. The decision was simple. It really wasn’t even a decision at all.

Now can you imagine feeling all those things but choosing not to be with him anyway?

That’s why your heart is broken. Because he didn’t feel those things. He didn’t feel that same certainty that you did, deep in your bones. And you can’t change that, and you can’t fix yourself, and there’s nothing you did wrong. It’s just the truth. His heart didn’t make the decision for his brain, because his heart is in a different place from yours. And that really, really sucks. And you just have to accept it. And that sucks even more. When it came down to it, I did not walk away. He just did not want me, and no amount of waiting is going to change that. 

My girls will learn to never chase after nor try to twist and turn to get someone to want them. 

Mothers Day

Teacher Appreciation Pizza Night

We went out for pizza last night. Organ stop treated Teacher to a free pizza. Can't beat free or the music. The girls loved all the music!