Temptations

I have done a lot of reflecting lately on temptation. I am completely baffled by how strong temptations become as we move closer to making steps of growing closer to our Savior. 

In my own life I have seen this since October. Looking back, I can see a very distinct time of which Satan began working on me to faultered and make mistakes. As the time approaches for me to receive the fullness of my blessings back, I have been tempted on all directions. To the point that even my faith has been shaken, and I have questioned things that I have never before questioned. I have been thru difficult trials, however, not of this kind. The past 5 months truly have brought the most difficult trials of my faith and my strength on the Gospel. 

As I struggle to find my foundation, I know what I want, it is so close, and yet feels impossible to accomplish. My heart feels faint and wants to quit under the complete feeling of failure and inability to achieve my goal. I have never felt so discouraged and hopeless for something in my life. I am scared.